No one said 'come out'

Just shows how deep within the cult that you are when you view the OP's decision as between absolute silence on the topic verses coming out publicly to his entire community as a pedophile. It's possible for a young teenager to confide in a trusted adult friend that a situation brought up sexually stimulating feelings without those feelings defining the person. Surviving such a discussion is not the same as surviving a fall from a plane. You need to get out of your autistic cave of fear and visit the real world for a change. Many people have discussed their sexuality with friends, family, church group members, pastors and countless other situations without those conversations leading to the ruined lives that you envision. Every medium or larger town in America has Celebrate Recovery type meetings on a Wednesday or Thursday night where people break out into small groups according to the issue they are struggling with. Anyone who wants to can attend such a meeting this week and meet someone who talks about sexual impulses or attraction to minors. Outside of the church there are many other community self help groups, support groups and counseling groups where people talk about attraction towards minors. Almost every one who ended up in such a group talked to a trusted friend, pastor or someone about their attractions first and rather than turn them in to the thought police, the friend recommended one of the many groups that exist to help people work through these issues. And that's not even mentioning the many people (most) who just talk to a trusted friend and don't end up going on to participate in a meeting/group about it. If you'd get offline and climb up out of your mom's basement, you might find out that the world isn't as dangerous as your fellow cult members have taught you to think it is. Especially not for non-offending teenagers who are still going through puberty themselves and are generally assumed to have a life worth preserving. How many MAPs have you met irl? How many meetups have you attended? How many support groups have you organized in your local churches? You have zero idea what you are talking about.