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... and relax. 1) What should I ask my solicitor when I meet him? You need to know if anything for which you could be prosecuted has been found. If nothing was found, then (unless you confessed to something else that they would want to prosecute you for, only on the basis of your "confession") you are not in trouble. DO NOT SPEAK TO THE POLICE AGAIN WITHOUT YOUR LAWYER BY YOUR SIDE. 2) Is the best thing to do right now just kill myself? Can I only expect misery from now on? No. Suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems. You will, no matter what happens, eventually be OK. Don't throw that away. 3) How can I stop myself from going out of my mind and constantly thinking about this? That's the hard one. Alcohol is not the best answer. Take a class in yoga, so you can get better in touch with your body and learn your physical reactions to stress. Change your physical reactions and your stress level goes down. 4) What are others experiences of this type of thing? Thank god it never happened to me. 5) How do I convince people I am not a bad person, I never asked/wanted to be attracted to boys but it is something I have lived with since I hit puberty. You can't reason with irrational people. If someone *is* rational then you can explain the way you are to them. If they are dead-set against BL and won't listen to reason, then they are (for now) a lost cause. Let it go. 6) How is the best way to tell my family about this? Unless you face prosecution, there is no reason to tell them. If you are going to be put on trial, you could tell them that it is all a big mistake and that some porno sneaked onto your computer from a site you accidently visited. Don't make things worse by a "confession" to your family if they cannot handle that kind of information. Whatever you do, do it slowly, and after pausing a long time to rethink your course of action. Doing anything quickly will probably be a mistake. 7) How normal a life can I expect to live after this? If they don't prosecute, you are probably just fine. Get Tor, encrypt any porn, learn to wipe disk space (including the swap file), and clean your browser tracks (don't use Windows Internet Explorer - it can't be easily cleaned up after browsing, and has other problems also). 8) In what way can others find out about this without me directly telling them? Even if it ends up with a conviction. You were arrested (and, sorry to point this out, but ONLY because you talked to them VOLUNTARILY) and that is on the public record. If noone notices it, then you are fine. Depending on your state/district/countrys laws, you may or may not have to disclose in the future that you were once arrested. Ask your solicitor about this. You'll be OK, but it is possible you will have tough times ahead. Adversity builds character (I can say that from personal experience - every morning I pray to god, "Dear Lord, no more character for me!! Please!!) You will be stronger and a better person for this. Of course, in future you may want to remember that though first-hand experience is the best teacher, it is also the most expensive. Try to learn more from other peoples mistakes, and avoid making them yourself. Good luck! (NOTE: I am not a lawyer. Check with a lawyer regarding anything I have said above.) |