Re: Madness...in a crucial context

Yeah, I think I follow, all the people in the hospital were definitely manikins, I would eat food though none of them seemed to, I ate and felt guilty for it so I willed them to take pleasure in eating, one wreck of a woman would eat in slow motion, she was well past repair, but at least she seemed to be eating, I savoured getting dessert like cake and custard I thought I'd have to feed the fuckers and make them truly thankful for it just so I could introduce them to the pleasures of food, and then I could eat among them, without feeling such a heel. I recall one man putting out food for dinner and he was slamming the plates down hard on the counter as if he held a huge grudge I just observed him banging down the plates, I sheepishly accepted my dinner, but something was making him unhappy. I guess he was just fed up being a manikin, to serve only me, when all the others didn't give two fucks whether they ate or starved. Well they probably were not hungry and eating wasn't in their job description, but I thought they looked happier when they were eating, so the charade continued.