Re: They found out

If they said they dont hate you, it’s a good sign. It’s normal for them to struggle, their brainwashing rhetoric is being challenged by you. Deep down they know you are not a monster because they know you. Actions speak louder than words, so if you keep on living they will see that you are not a monster and they will start to feel better about it. If you kill yourself, they will believe you really were a monster. Don’t do that please. Show them that you are a good person and that they have been brainwashed. It’s your moment to show that you will never hurt a kid, in fact you love them so much that it hurts. If they love you as it seems, soon enough you will be able to talk more with them about being a BL and that will make you feel better at one point. Don’t expect them to understand everything you say, but they might try to see your point or at least see that you do have deep and loving feelings. They will probably tell you to go to a therapist, dont get mad about it, it’s their way of saying “i love you but i dont understand it and i think this will help”. Yes, they will be watching down your neck at first, but you will see how easy is gonna be for you to show them that what you have to give is just pure love.