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Thank you xdsaz. This is easier in your case. Since my nephew is family, this is difficult to happen. Also I am still attached to his sister so having both at the same time is confusing. It is like I have a smile with the niece and when I look at him the smile disappears. This is extremely painful to him and to me. The problem also is that he gets really bullied by his parents so the coincidence happened that I also became detached so it is so cruel that he might think that everyone has abandoned him and I feel powerless to do something about it. I really want him to move on and I have told some close family members multiple times that my time have ended with him. I have done sooooo much more than any family member would do for their nephew, and of course being a boylover, I loved every minute of it. I protected him, I laughed with him, I took him places, I picked him up from nursery for a really long time. But I can't do this anymore because of the nature of my attraction, that we are great until a certain age then we don't like age betraying our loved ones. There was nothing romantic or sexual between us but I just don't like spending time with adults and I love spending time with children. For me the onset of puberty just made me become distant from him. I think the only way to deal with this, is one day, coming out and saying we are boylovers and people would understand that we can function well within certain ages and beyond that we are unable to do it anymore. I have been struggling with this for the past year and a half and it has not gotten any easier. Thank you for your input. ![]() |