Yes you are losing your libido

Part of what makes incarceration such an effective crime deterrent is the way those years kick a person in the balls. By the time they get off of probation they have grown out of the hothead age bracket. Welcome to that part of adulthood that happens after the prefrontal cortex fully grows in. Fully grown adults are much less likely to commit crimes of passion, especially if their advancing years are co-morbid with other libido reducing factors such as lack of a proper sleep schedule or being overweight, plus certain medications suppress libido. If those comorbidities don't apply to you then the most likely explanation is that you have grown up and begun to look at boys in a more balanced way. You are a gentlemanly father type now. Depending on who you ask around here love might lasts a lifetime or for others love is a quick momentary thing hastily groped for when no one is watching. Don't let your friend's awkward behavior at the school yard make you think he doesn't appreciate your presents in his life. Imagine if he showed up at your adult place and just walked up to you. You might want to greet him warmly, but also might feel the hot feeling of being exposed in a crowd. In your head you are wondering if they approve of your relationship. You can see how a much younger person might play it cool in front of their friends. Some of life's most enjoyable friendships are with people who the cool kid's wouldn't approve of, but it take a certain amount of self confidence to express affection in front of one's peers. Many children have that annoying habit of wearing their hearts on their sleeves. It makes sense that you'd rather see more happy hugs and less withdrawn monosyllables. If you want him to treat you differently you might could bargain with him or try to give him a talking to, but then again don't you want to know how he really feels? Like double edged sword theory: If you train him to act more polite then he may become easier to be around, but harder to tell what he's really thinking, but if you gracefully accept his mood swings you may have to take more responsibility for your own triggers (possibly annoying) but also you retain his mutual respect. Maybe as you get to know him better you can figure out what kind of environment helps him relax and open up. You can lead a horse to water, but it is always up to him if he drinks. Of course you have to have enough self respect to have limits. If you are asking for advice, sources say one of the best ways to handle any struggle or hardship is to ask a friend to share your burdens. This works with spiritual or emotional burdens just as much as with physical burdens. It would be great if you could find an irl friend to talk about your jealousy and codependency issues. Young friends are great, but sometimes you need to talk your issues over with a grown up friend like a trusted friend from church or a trusted relative.