a new place in your heart

You loved Jack, the little boy. And he governed a great deal of your emotions. Now, Jack has to move on. I mean he has to move to a different place, since he is no longer eliciting the old emotions. When i entered military service, i left a little boy behind, one i loved as a little boy. And when i saw him several years later, he was a youngster. It was kind of strange, i had to resort to a different role, like former old friend. In fact, we are not alone. A lot of people transition to a different role. Some go from friends to lovers, and then from lovers to ex-es. For some it is easy, for others it takes years. I guess, if one is higher up on the Asperger's scale, adjusting takes longer time. Happy new year! And relax, you too will adjust. Don't worry, Jack has a special place for you in his heart, after all, all of his childhood events have formed him. It will take a while, but you will get a different connection with him. Just remember, it takes time to build trust. And i am sure he trusts you. You will get a new role in his life. My best well wishes to you!