It’s just that I eventually needed to seek help before I hurt myself. It’s hard to feel proud of that. Mostly all still feel is shame, to be honest. But I did find help, that’s the key point. And it was a struggle finding it. I’ve experienced what one might call dismissal before and it was extraordinarily painful. And maybe I’m naive and perhaps the entire medical, psychiatric, scientific world really is out to destroy us. But I’ve managed to do a pretty decent job at achieving things that I never thought I’d be able to, despite the difficult emotional feelings I occasionally sometimes experience. And maybe my situation is rare, but in my experience there are good people who want to help. Perhaps not the specific people you cite, but they do exist. |