Bitching never achieved anything by its lonesome. Fact is, God almighty bestowed you with a beautiful gift—the ability to care for and passionately desire children not only sexually but emotionally as well. He made you with the foresight that you would eventually care for your little boyfriend, which you have and will surely continue to do. Despite what those scientifically illiterate ninnies say, you're an amazing guy with a heart made of gold. You were born this way; you were meant to have these feelings. You aren't "perverted" or mentally ill, you're merely acting on your nature. There's no more reason to feel guilty or ashamed for being what you are than there is for your being male. Work with what you've been given and make the best of it, and tell the little guy how you feel now while you're still raw. He might feel betrayed if you keep that vital part of yourself locked away into adulthood. Best Wishes, Ellen (formerly visiting from Visions of Alice) |