Re: See that is what terrorizes me....

hi pharmakon. I know I can't speak for him, I don't know him and it probably isn't my place, but... I read through your whole post and I can tell how much this has been weighing on you for so so many years. I just wanted to say that, from what I understood, maybe your YF's silence/refusal to throw you under the bus (despite his contact with the police) speaks louder than words could? There are many people in this world who are happy to live with the stigma, so long as they could rake their abuse over the coals. And from what I've seen, those police/therapists are very persuasive when it comes to this issue. To me, as an outsider on this, it sounds like he's protected you for all these years. Surely if he hated you, he would have stomached the consequences and done everything in his power to put you away? These are just my impressions, I hope they were insightful? sometimes it's nice to hash these things out with another person, I think.