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I'm not suicidal - I mean I've never attempted suicide - and yet every day I contemplate the idea of finishing my life by myself. It's almost become a ritual by now. I've also dreamed many times of dying in a heroic way, like jumping in front of a car to save the life of a boy. I'm not sure if I would have the guts to do it IRL ; I never got the opportunity as you can imagine ;) Anyway, I'm not ready to give up life yet. As meaningless it may seem, I still want to fight. I want to bite the dust until my mouth tastes like nothing but clay, and my teeth get eroded down to the gum. Until my back becomes nothing but a big hunch and yet I would not bow. But I may welcome death when it finally comes to me. I hope so, at least. As a wise man said a long time ago: "death is the terror of evil people, and the reward of good ones." And he didn't mean it as any kind of afterlife-nonsense. No, I believe death is good when you have lived the right way, and suffered all the misery one gets along. Once the way has been followed till its very end, and the last drop of water has been swallowed. I hope I can be proud of myself then, and leave with no regrets, even if many of my dreams will likely remain as dreams only. Well, nevermind my ramble, and back to your proposition: people would probably consider the suicide of a CL the same way they consider the suicide of Judas: as a late remorse. No, really, the only thing we've got to oppose them, is our lives. And love. |