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I think that it is great that you are sharing this with us. Being a pedophile, or a boylover, or any sexuality for that matter is not a mental disorder as many people try to say. It is no different than someone liking chocolate and someone liking vanilla. There is not much philosophizing about it, as many religious leaders and mental health "professionals" try to do. As for the other mental health issues, I am sure you would like to deal with them although it might be difficult because you would want to talk about your sexuality as well. If it is any consolation, there is a group called B4U-ACT that is trying to provide mental health professionals for boylovers while understanding our needs. Read the rules carefully before you continue posting here, and with other related boylove places, and use as much misinformation as you can so you protect your identity (misinformation is where you deliberately provide false information to protect yourself). There are a lot of antis and LEOs here who are probably voyeurs. Have you heard of TOR? It is a safe way to visit such websites for better internet security. I would suggest you invest sometime to learn more about how to protect yourself online.