Re: Police raided house. In desperate need of help.

I will just add what I can to some very good advice already given... 1. What should I ask my solicitor when I meet him? Tell him everything that happened so that he understands the situation. 2. Is the best thing to do right now just kill myself? Can I only expect misery from now on? I don't normally comment on stupid questions like this one. 3. How can I stop myself from going out of my mind and constantly thinking about this? You can't but it will eventually go away with the time, it always does. 4. What are others experiences of this type of thing? Some don't give two fucks about it and others live the rest of their lives in misery, it is your choice who you want to be. 5. How do I convince people I am not a bad person, I never asked/wanted to be attracted to boys but it is something I have lived with since I hit puberty. You like, people hate pedos, people want to see all pedos dead, you have no choice but to like, you are not a pedo, either you were depressed, or the child porn got there by accident. Admit you are a pedo and you are out. 6. How is the best way to tell my family about this? I think that there is a high likehood that cops might speak with them (depending on your personal cas & situation), they will want to know if you have access to kids and warn the kids parents that you are a possible danger because you are a possible pedo. You tell your family that you know nothing about all that and the child porn ended there by mistake somehow. Since it is not sure the cops will talk with them, better wait, but be ready. You need to lie here too sorry, pedos have no right to tell the truth. How normal a life can I expect to live after this? As normal as you want, if you want to live miserably then OK, if you try and put everything behind like a load of rubbish made up by prejudiced society then OK, your choice. In what way can others find out about this without me directly telling them? Even if it ends up with a conviction Cops might talk to your friends and family during the course of investigation, if the case goes to trial your name could end up on the newspapers and maybe found easily using Google for ever. You have no choice but to lie, probably unethical to lie to friends, but people hate pedos, you have no choice. Now my advice: 1- You made a big mistake talking to the cops, they are not your friends they never will be. 2- You need to assume that telling others you are a pedo and then complain of harassment is self inflicted pain. You need to learn to lie, you can't go around the world telling others you are a pedo and then expect nothing happens. 3- You need to assume that your family and friends might find out, it is always difficult to lie to the family but you do not have a choice if the case comes. 4- Unless others are pedos too they have no right to pass judgement on you. Tell them to fuck off. Would you put on trial a black man with an all white jury and expect to be 100% fair? Probably not, at least not where I live.