#1 What should I ask my solicitor when I meet him? Find out what your options are and what the exact charges are and if you are looking at time behind bars or will be allowed to remain free under supervision and/or counseling. #2 Is the best thing to do right now just kill myself? Can I only expect misery from now on? Absolutely not. Until you have felt the unconditional love a boy can give us in this world, you do not know the meaning of heaven. No matter how bad things can be, there is an amazing and wonderful world if you are brave enough to find it. #3 How can I stop myself from going out of my mind and constantly thinking about this? Stop the drinking, get involved with activities with friends. #4 What are others experiences of this type of thing? Cannot comment fully due to personal concerns and board rules but I've been through worse and am glad I am alive today. #5 How do I convince people I am not a bad person, I never asked/wanted to be attracted to boys but it is something I have lived with since I hit puberty. - Learn to love and accept yourself. Easy to say but difficult to do. Just because you have the attractions you do does not make you a bad person. #6 How is the best way to tell my family about this? Honesty. If they do not love you enough to accept you for who you truly are then they are not worth being called family. #7 How normal a life can I expect to live after this? As normal as you make it. I would advise you to make a move to a new area where you will not feel watched, although that may not be possible. #8 In what way can others find out about this without me directly telling them? Even if it ends up with a conviction. - Depends on the laws and punishment. |