I don't know if you've thought about that enough. Enough people have said, this situation isn't that dire if you handle it right (depending on those unrelated charges perhaps), and you shouldn't then expect jail time. You have some tips now, incase. You have people behind you. We might be virtual and no doubt some of us are a bit creepy and quirky, but you get it, we're here for you as ears and an experience pool. Where else would you get tips on how to sneak suicide materials into jail that you probably won't end up in? Lol. You're empowered. But it's your life. So figure out if you want to open up with some, think about whether it's worth it, whether it will prevent you from achieving any other personal dreams and goals, and which ones come first. Also remember, that you can leave. You are free. Take care of yourself now. You're still young and you still have enough of an intact brain to get wherever you want to get. You were to anxious and reactive when the police came in, too dramatic. Take it slow, think clearly, be a little smarter than them - you can afford to be, they aren't THAT smart, but they are tricky and mean. Please remember anything is possible as long as you live, nothing as long as you don't. Get off drugs and alcohol as soon as you can, and off people you are too dependent on, do this in conjunction with a new life. You've got to hang around for a while, use this time to get in shape and plan a new chapter. With some hard work the world, even now, remains your oyster. Take care of yourself ok, don't set a horrible precedent for us others who have to go through acknowledging and accepting themselves as boylovers. Help us, help you. :) |