for the love of David Thorstad

While i did publicly share strong difficulties/pain I had with David, I do not wish to then wreck or cancel (!) his entire input/study/academic trajectory, since all of the colonized (AND their oppressors) are victims of the warmindset that leads us all to such diversities of imbalance!!! And, I actually liked his badass streetfighter-brawly-yellish abilities, such as his leadership in dealing with the cops during our '94 NYC SOS march!! For the YEARS i knew him before this sudden, what's it called --AMBUSH, i actually liked the guy, tho i was certainly conscious of his animosity towards the extent of my open-mindedness (and free-spiritedness)! And, to pick up a Frame of Reference i try on from time to time, i kind of felt like his girlfriend of sorts, where, before she has sex with him, she wants to help him thru that flailingshit. (Btw, his 'co' in the attack was not so close, tho i had enjoyed knowing him for a few years as well. Goes to show you, eh?!) All David's MAJOR ADRENALINE BLASTING VIBES REFLECTING his FEAR i suppose. Such was a major part of the origins, i suspect. Sure, a badass in the Big City, but where he was later when i got to know this OTHER part of him (which The Unicorn DID warn us about!)? Whoa! All by himself. And going off-the-deep-end as SO MANY OF THE materially CHALLENGED tend to go. Having no real spirituality, as i figure it. Being "Well Educated" and all, I don't think he ever was able to fully escape that. And then there were the threats he faced locally. And his armed readiness. And his drinking. Hard liquor. Smoking pot but not learning anything from it. I figure, not trusting that side of himself. Typical patriarchally-challenged fool! (Which i'm sure he fired at ME aplenty, as well! Well, i suppose ANYONE who think they can STAND UP TO THE empire is a fool, eh? Then, that's MISTER fooL to you!) And, i suppose, his negative PROJECTIONS on me. So I've been thinking about this whole thing, still. His (and co's) attack was more about them bashing my idealish spirit, i think. Maybe as a way to meta-teach (even when they don't know it!), maybe as a way to VENT the shitty ways that they got INTRODUCED TO via so-called "elite" "class" Norms. Reflecting empire and its consequences, after all. Big breath. People lose it in this cult-ure of warmindsetSTUCK and i DEFINITELY counsel radical's radical EMPATHY. Recognizing the value. THAT MEANS THAT I DON'T HATE DAVID AND HIS 'CO' FOR THEIR SHITTY BEHAVIOR. i hate their behavior. And i openly challenged this Alienation,Inc. that they've (as with so many) internalized. i DID challenge the 'co'. And since i have no proof that he actually posted in this forum, i won't go into any more detail. i told him in the past, he needs to "shape up" and STOP that kind of shit (as i realized i'm surely not the first one to be dealt with so). And so now i more formally pass this on to his co-horts! May THEY have THE BALLS to intervene on this offbalance he apparently picked up from the so-called "elites" (materially wealthy but psychologically not!). In my involvement in this movement in various places, i try to "seed" this form of excellence. i don't expect to survive in this paradigm much longer, but i will continue to try the best i know! (see you in future lives?!?)