But is there any way for a BL to forget a boy he has loved? I don't think so. (Well, advanced Alzheimer maybe...) What I've learned over the years is how much many boys yearn for a positive BL relationship, whatever it means. Even if they realize the world disapproves of it, that nobody around them "gets it". Even if they get their emotional and sexual needs already satisfied in other ways. Even if they already have one (or more!) lover(s). Even if the interactions are quite frustrating due to the necessity of being secret about it. Love can transcend all obstacles in amazing ways, though it can be quite difficult and sometimes even leave a bittersweet taste. To me, the last years have been a very humbling journey. I understand now why in ancient times they considered Eros as a god. I don't feel like I've been in control of much of what's happened, even though I had to make a lot of decisions. I did my best to exercise good judgment, but all in all, have I been anything but a plaything of the fate? But a mostly benevolent one. I have no regrets whatsoever. I never thought our relationship would last for so long, though. And as the Stoics of old, I'm careful not to take any of this for granted, and be grateful for any extra day that the gods of boylove grant me. Lots of happy boys to you, FF mi lon. mute mije lili kin li lon. o sina kute e mi, mi ala wile, pilin pona mi li anpa e pilin ante. |