You simply can't focus only on what you don't have... boys are ephemeral. You can't build your life around boys alone. You have to find a way to be fulfilled by yourself and then if a boy comes into your life .... well, that is just icing on the cake, but it is still temporary. The thing is that it is not the lack of boys in your life that is hurting you, you are doing that to yourself. Stop it. It is trite to say but, "Be the best you" and the rest will fall into place. All thoughts of boys but no thought to Jack makes a very miserable BL :) International Boylove Day BoyWiki |