I'm usually pretty acerbic at mis-guided attempts by our crowd to break through into public visibility. For example, the notorious SHOE-DISCOURSE by Jacob Breslow at B4U-ACT set a high water-mark for forensic unreadiness, which it's been a matter of years to recover from. But I'm even more acerbic over our failures to break through into public visibility, when they come from people who have the technical resources and rhetorical skills be able to do so. I feel like my own role is as the Wizard of Oz, doling out the courage to our Cowardly Lions. "OH!" NEWGON/MU seems to be perpetually saying, grabbing its tail in its hands for security: "IF I ONLY HAD THE COURAGE! What great a great public communicator for BOY-LOVE I could be!!!" (Day 43, as far as MU not having done any public speaking engagements. LET ME KNOW, if you've done any! I will be loud in your praise!) Yes, I can tell you; yes; your life *WILL* be destroyed if you come out and speak publicly on BL. And you will have to find a way to GO RIGHT OUT with your life, in greatly reduced circumstances. The important question is: what changes will you make in society, by making that sacrifice? And what impact will society have on you, in responding to what you say, once you make a figure of yourself, as a doubleplusgood BL-speaker? I have my integrity, because I've chosen to speak out. I don't have much else in life, but I do have that. Most of us live in a hot-house of our own steamy imaginings HOW COOL IT WOULD BE . . . if such-and-such happened, and have to be brutally trained in how much of that to share at BC and how much to share with people in our private lives . . . never mind the question of how much to share in a high-profile interview format. But whatever small negative points I could mention about this NICKY/COWBOY interview, the overall impression is a substantial move in the right direction: the humanity and self-restraint come through very clearly, tho the humanity is trampled down, and the self-restraint is . . . no more or less real than the voices of the kids on the beach in Jamaica. "Assume a virtue, if you have it not." See also the self-censorship imposed by the comics code, the debate on HOW MUCH BETTER COMICS WERE, when they could camp out on HEADLIGHTS and the INJURY-TO-THE-EYE MOTIF. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Comics_Code_Authority If we can't speak honestly about our own temptations and failings as BL's, we're not going to make progress educating our young people, and becoming REAL to the general public. Not ciphers for their repressed pedo-toileting material, but real. There were plenty of cringe-moments in the interview, sure. I would prefer not to be identified with a set of people who typically get taken to prison for their misdeeds, and I prefer to leave the absconding with juvenile marsupials to slvrspun. The impulse to DISCLAIM that part of myself and that part of my community is strong, and I have to confront it. In confronting Little Nickey and Cowboy as fellow internet content-makers, I am forced to rethink my own positions and strategies for what I present and how I present it, and that's good, if painful. But overall, high marks to Little Nicky and Cowboy for going ahead, making the content, and distributing it, warts and all. I look forward to great things, from your corner! ---Sb |