now you are getting it

You've been traumatized by having tpka "Tyred" and friends expose your manipulative claim game, so now anything thing said by the person who you feel hurt you "sounds like" something scary and painful. This is an accurate portrayal of how the brain works and once someone has internalized a belief (even a false one) that is what they think they hear when they encounter a situation that an untraumatized person would consider nonthreatening. Your twisting of words would be funny if it weren't so sad. You've dug such a hole of angry defenses up that literally nothing anyone could say would convince you that the world isn't a terrible place full of foolish diabolical trolls out to get you. There's nothing anyone here can do to help you or mono, so our only option left is to accept you just as you are and leave you to it.