I have mixed feelings about wishing if I was or wasn't. I used to wish I wasn't all the time and before that wouldn't even admit it to myself. Hated myself a lot for it even. But I also think sexuality is sacred. I love that I can see attraction and beauty in something so commonly ignored by everyone else. And after I while I had to accept what I am, and now, if I could hit a 'no strings attached' switch to turn myself into a 'normal' person I honestly don't know if I would or I wouldn't. I probably would not. And I get you on the burning alive part too; being like this can feel like a bit of a burden, especially in today's world. |