Re: Feeling sad, frustrated and angry at the moment

I think you gave yourself sound advice at the end by relaxing to music and adding a positive element to things. A lot of things don't make sense. I have no idea why I have this sexual orientation? What good does it do to anyone? I am unable to express it, if I do people will revolt against me, so I ask the higher power, why did you put the orientation in us? I think that we are screaming into the void unfortunately when we ask and we don't get a response. I guess even we, pedophiles, also have preferences that we throw logic out the window when it comes to them. For instance, we accept a political party even if they are doing atrocious acts, and we hold another party accountable on spelling just because we don't like them. I feel that deep down we have so much hatred towards adult heterosexual relationships that we internalized so much that sometimes we enjoy fantasizing about them. I think if it were up to me I would want to skin heterosexual adults alive. They are so disgusting. The power is currently with them so we shut up and smile. If we were living in ancient Greece we would have had the power and hetero adults would have cowered. It is very painful. I hope we get relief through different channels such as music and other interests. BoyChat has definitely been some sort of life changer.