Re: In the Face of Death

This is an important list which I guess I am either too depressed to write one like this or you are more reflective than I am. The top list is definitely something it would be nice to strive for. As for the bottom list, I don't know why I feel too paralyzed to even think whether I can even think about it. I don't imagine myself getting closer to a boy at all. Maybe I am afraid what society would think, or what my close family would think of it. I do not think that I can actively search for love with a boy. If it happens then it's another story but to seek out the love is something I do not think I am in the frame of mind to put myself in a situation to achieve it. I hear BLs from the older generation talk about having had yfs but maybe I was brought up in a generation where it is completely unheard of to think of having a yf. It is good thought that you have clarity of mind to think these things. I hope that we achieve them.