If you're wondering whether they're thinking, even dimly, that you might be a pedophile, you are probably right, about some of them at least. You need to stop being so defensive in your own thinking, I believe. You've done nothing wrong. If anyone were to say something, you'd be right to feel and express outrage. Meanwhile, own your desires, even if you wouldn't name them to anyone except people like us in a place like this, where it is relatively safe. |