e) other reasons you can't figure out? I have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder most recently confirming that same diagnosis from age 16. Bi-polar is one of those things that now two people are a like for me depression never lasts long and usually gets triggered by an event. My latest go around has given me insight that I'm not really depressed at any point it's just that my mania gets so out of control there's no place to go but crashing down and I often go down so rapidly that a suicide attempt takes place. 14 lifetime attempts and I'm still here doesn't mean I'm not a failure at suicide or just playing games. I know how fast I can cycle from manic to depression and back to manic again. Odd thing is I never think about planning for the next one but I do often months in advance while enjoying life in a manic state. Often I try to control how high my manic state gets by forced breaks in life examples go camping and such Boychat unfortunately is a place I go to when things aren't going so well and I need to sort things out thank goodness for that |