I've been out to my family by the time I was age 13 and suicidal at age 16 but I'm well into my 50's now even though I've had 12 lifetime suicide attempts. Was diagnosed as having Manic Depression (Bipolar Disorder) at age 16 haven't had treatment for it since age 20. Funny thing about people knowing is that they forget over time. Not sure if they really forget or just tend to not say anything about it. I've learned to tend to remind the people I want in my life I am 100 percent BL. I've remained boyless for over 20 years now for reasons of I don't believe I have the strength to say no to sexual stuff if it came up with a Y.F. in my life. MY arrest in 1994 proved that to be true Not that I think sexplay with minors is all that wrong but I just don't wish to do the time in jail if and when It's found out about. BTW: I should point out I've had my share of sexplay with boys mostly from my youth but that still counts for me These days it's far too dangerous to act sexually upon boylove feelings esp if you live in The USA but, I do have my ways of doing so. Boy celebrities in movies, music and television live in my fantasy world as Y,F.s sometimes. The day they make a movies like "The Client" (The DVD in my player ATM) illegal for me to watch is the day I give up on living period. |