So I landed in my new place today.

Tomorrow in report. Isn't that just wonderful. I'm laying here on the bed just recently acquired my dog. I conducted an interview today with a guy who is thinking about running running from me period I can't handle all these bills by myself so I'm going to have to do something you know? It's a lot nicer than where I was. I have to boil bags now when before all I had was a shower stall toilet and sink in another room. I like the place okay I suppose nice hardwood floors throughout. It's got an upstairs at cetera. Still I don't know that I will be here for that long. I've got something else in the works and I hope that it comes through pretty quick. I've noticed a couple of bugs period as a tragedy and dirty as the cave was I did not have bugs. I do not do bugs. It just freaks me out. I'm afraid one of them are going to crawl on me in the night when I'm sleeping. I guess I must smell like Cherry Blossom flowers now because I went and bought some phone bath period I haven't been able to lay down in the tub for I guess about five years. That was really nice. I've been so depressed and drinking so heavily I haven't been bathing properly. As embarrassing as it is it's been a while you know. Most of my stuff is still over at The Cave. I'm laying here on this bed with Chock smoking cigarettes and drinking a mixed drink. And of course I've been thinking about boys etcetera. I've been doing some reading here period I see you infinity extreme seems to be processing some stuff. It won't be long before I'll be in the hospital I don't suppose. Was it not for having to handle all this stuff I would already be in the hospital. Weather in detox. Somebody here mentioned to me a couple of weeks ago that there are people who will care for and individuals dog if they have to go in for medical attention. When I was in the emergency room the other day a social worker came and spoke with me and told me that she personally knew people who were professionals who would care for my dog while I was gone period that's going to be a difficult thing to just walk off and leave them in the hands of someone I don't know. But she promised me they would take excellent care of him. I suppose it's been obvious I've been thinking about R and Jay a lot lately (I mean a really lot) I can't help but wonder how they are. I also can't help but wonder how they feel toward me. But I'm not going to get an all that tonight. I don't really want to have sex with a boy anymore but I certainly wish I had one to dote over and spoil. Anyway blah blah blah.