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I remember your first post that was a response to something I said was you saying that I seem too good to be true. Now that I've read more of your posts and have read the things you've shared about your struggles, I totally can see why you have misgivings. It does make me feel a little sad, to be honest, but I also think that its very understandable and I have great sympathy and patience for your feelings. I am very moved, troubled, saddened, and shocked by what you've said and I think you deserve patience. If your distrust in me comes from my nonverbalness, though, please believe me when I say that it's because I'm too scared to talk to people, and it's taking me a lot of bravery to be this candid. All I can say is that I'm not a cop. When i was little, I wanted to be, because I wanted more control over my life, but eventually I grew bored of the idea, and I'm too much of a gay sissy, more concerned about what clothes I will wear today and having tragic moments when I forget to shave, to pursue such a career anyway. I'm too shrimpy, too short, and too friendly to pursue a career in law enforcement. I became an education worker instead. Obviously, you don't have to believe me and I get it if you don't and decide to think of me as scum. A part of me feels like you'd prefer not to, though. Anyway, I'm never going to act on my feelings and desires because I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to ruin anyone's life, including my own. Thank you for your honesty and your understanding and I'm sorry if I gave you an insidious impression.. |