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...that has been bothering me. First off, I am not associating this experience with anybody here. Nor am I associating it with my own attraction to boys. This is all about a woman and her husband who used to babysite when I was 10-12 years of age. Their idea of humor involved using carrot-stick psychology to coerce me into acts of bestiality. And then they would laugh their asses off and claim I consented when I really was just avoiding the stick. That kind of shame-based power play really did a good job of keeping me quiet about what was going on. No, this has nothing to do with how I ended up with BL attractions. And this really never was my crap to own, I now realize. But this does explain why I think the morality involving children and consent really should be taken on a case to case basis. One size fits all never works in any situation. This is why I am afraid to be around boys. I was easy to mold. Not all are like that, but many are. So, I have a lot of mixed feelings. And that is where I am at with this. |