I pretty much

Hate females. There are control freaks all of them. As much as I love my mother, as much as I would kill a motherfucker over her I watched her beat by sister into the floor with a leather belt more times and I can count. When my sister was young she had trouble with telling the truth period that was unacceptable and our house and when one got caught lying they woulf get the shit beat out of them. I remember my mother coming my sister's hair and my sister we cry because it would hurt because her hair was thick and it would be Tangled. My mother would slap her in the side of the face with the comb and snap at her and say I'm not hurting you. As I've mentioned before my sister has always been a soft place to land. I'm pausing and rubbing my forehead right now. My mother is in a nursing home now period and my sister is her prized possession she always wants my sister to come see her. Cheese in the beginning stages of dementia. God knows what a mess. Sometimes I think I'm going to lose my fucking mind. Correction, maybe I already have.