You just described me to a t. I just woke up and took a look at the things I said last night. Calling people the worst names I can think of is not the type of individual I want to be. I told someone yesterday it would be an awful thing to have my life or ruined by an individual and then end up on death row because my desire for Retribution. To lose my life at the hands of the government after the living out of it had already been taken for years and years is mind-boggling. I honestly don't know what to do. The person I was talking to the about it yesterday told me that God will hold that individual accountable. My immediate response was maybe I am that accountability. I'm not going to beg people for validation through this website. Most of the time I feel like a complete idiot. I don't even know what I'm doing here. I don't know what I'm seeking from others whom I believe or like me at least to some degree. I don't want to be a jerk I don't want to be an asshole to everybody. I know I'm not well right now. I just wanted to say that stuff in response. Again, I'm not seeking sympathy, I'm just telling it like it is you know? Well, it's time for a good stiff drink and then going back to sleep I suppose. |