Yeah, you probably feel bad about threatening to

... not return, so it's good you posted a disclaimer. No reason in upsetting anyone else (after 4/1). I think folks just think they can change your posting behavior by beating you over the head daily. No one really wants to see you leave, just change a bit. I'm not asking you to change. I know better. You are really SCARILY like me (seriously). I use you as a good example of a bad example. I don't know if you are worse-off than me, since I'm only going by your posts here (the ones I read; and I read really slowly, so I try to be selective). Maybe I don't read you because it's just too painful to see me in you, and see you in such a crappy predicament (albeit by your own hand). I don't understand what people are good for. My therapist told me that people just ARE, and are not meant to be "good for something". I guess I'm Aspergic with all that entails (I've been "laid-off", or perhaps "fired" from all of my jobs except ONE, but only after YEARS of befuddled managers trying to get real work out of me!). I'd rather argue than seek compromise. I want to fix stuff (only because everything is broken) and will put out more effort to convince others than I will when I'm given the task to perform (often an organization will assign the job to the one with the suggestion: "You know so much about the problem, we are putting you in charge of fixing it."). I know that YOU'VE worked hard on your "project", so not having a good work ethic may NOT be your problem, but mine. I'm impatient and get upset with people a LOT lately. I've isolated myself from everyone except my elderly, disabled BF who is in NO condition to be much of a "foil" for my nuttiness. He doesn't even laugh at my jokes. He realizes I'm trying to be funny, but he says he's "heard it all before", meaning that my sense of humor is SO predictable, that it's boring. Perhaps I'm as unwilling to concede as you are: I'll give you that. But, who knows? I hold grudges, and I'd better stop before you start thinking I just want to talk about myself. Anyway, I hope you can put up with folks who take digs at you. I'm sure it's not fun and has to be taking a toll on you. Life sucks. littlexs: age 5 yo